Hey all, I met this girl last year when we both came out of a relationship so we were both not ready for anyting serieus and became friends with benefits. Our connection is like none I've ever had before and we soon became best friends. Moving forward a few months I started to get a crush on her and told her about my feelings which were rejected. It hurted but we talked through it and decided to end the physical intimacy and stay best friends.
It took me a few months but I managed to get over it and didn't even get jealous when she started dating other guys. This lasted a few months and we had an amazing time but last month the feelings started to come back again and this time they only got stronger and stronger. At this point, i'm totally convinced that were soulmates. There's just nobody I've ever met that I can get along with so well and that makes me feel so alive and happy. We litterly do everything together as well, we go to the gym for 2 hours a day, play games later on in the evening, call for hours and hours when we don't meet up for whatever reason and we go clubbing every weekend. Last friday in the club my feelings for her were peaking and I had to tell her.. but she again didn't feel the same way. She tells me that she loves me too but not in a romantic way and wants to stay best friends.
I'm really heartbroken that we can't be more then what we are and having the daily reminder of what we could be but won't be is a mental torture for me. Because of this, I told her I wanted to take distance because I feel that I just won't be able to move on with my life this way. In her response she said she doesn't what that because I mean almost everything to her and she'll fall into an empty gap without me since we litterly do everything together and I'm her emotional rock. It got to the point that she tried to convince me that i'm not actually in love with her and it's just hormones and i'll go away when I find someone else. I know for myself though that this feeling comes from deep within (nothing i've ever felt before in previous relationships which were even great at the time) and I can't be open for other partners when I still love her so much.. I know this for sure because I've had beautiful girls flirt with me at the club but i'm simply not interested in them cause I know I just want her.
This conversation took place today and she asked me to think about it further cause she really doesn't want us to go seperate ways and even started to bring up things like "I was planning to make you the godfather of my child later" and "you just can't leave this great friendship and bond we have".
She's absolutely everything to me so it hurts tremendously to take distance and obviously it's not what I want either as I want to get even closer to her. But I've already tried to be friends last time and now I"m back with these feeling and they are even stronger then last time so I don't know if there's really another solution?
I would love to be able to stay best friends and find another love next to our friendship but I don't know if I can. I'd feel like an idiot if I put myself through months of mental torture just to feel heartbroken again in the future but i'll also regret losing this great friendship we have so this is really tearing me up. Has anyone of you been in a similar situation and managed to lose the feelings completely over time? Any tips on how to deal with this in general?
Extra: Even after ending our physical intimacy we still kissed a few times in the club when drunk and slepped in the same bed just cuddling each other but nothing more. This has happened only 4x after ending the physical intimacy so it's been rather rare for a time span of 8 months but I guess my point with this is that we've always been more then just friends but less then a relationship.

i would love to find someone like me with similar interests, someone who's honest and can keep up with a conversation.
i'm a digital artist, love to draw/design. Good taste of fashion, music, art. Love music (mostly hiphop and electronic music) i try to make some too sometimes.
I love tattoos, i want so much more ugh. Love videogames/anime/movies, know many of them so you can just ask me which ones i enjoy.i like working out.
oh i have a cat
please be 20 and above.
Looking forward to hearing from a cool people like you :>

Hey all, I met this girl last year when we both came out of a relationship so we were both not ready for anyting serieus and became friends with benefits. Our connection is like none I've ever had before and we soon became best friends. Moving forward a few months I started to get a crush on her and told her about my feelings which were rejected. It hurted but we talked through it and decided to end the physical intimacy and stay best friends.
It took me a few months but I managed to get over it and didn't even get jealous when she started dating other guys. This lasted a few months and we had an amazing time but last month the feelings started to come back again and this time they only got stronger and stronger. At this point, i'm totally convinced that were soulmates. There's just nobody I've ever met that I can get along with so well and that makes me feel so alive and happy. We litterly do everything together as well, we go to the gym for 2 hours a day, play games later on in the evening, call for hours and hours when we don't meet up for whatever reason and we go clubbing every weekend. Last friday in the club my feelings for her were peaking and I had to tell her.. but she again didn't feel the same way. She tells me that she loves me too but not in a romantic way and wants to stay best friends.
I'm really hurt that we can't be more then what we are and having the daily reminder of what we could be but won't be is a mental torture for me. Because of this, I told her I wanted to take distance because I feel that I just won't be able to move on with my life this way. In her response she said she doesn't what that because I mean almost everything to her and she'll fall into an empty gap without me since we litterly do everything together and I'm her emotional rock. It got to the point that she tried to convince me that i'm not actually in love with her and it's just hormones and i'll go away when I find someone else. I know for myself though that this feeling comes from deep within (nothing i've ever felt before in previous relationships which were even great at the time) and I can't be open for other partners when I still love her so much.. I know this for sure because I've had beautiful girls flirt with me at the club but i'm simply not interested in them cause I know I just want her.
This conversation took place today and she asked me to think about it further cause she really doesn't want us to go seperate ways and even started to bring up things like "I was planning to make you the godfather of my child later" and "you just can't leave this great friendship and bond we have".
She's absolutely everything to me so it hurts tremendously to take distance and obviously it's not what I want either as I want to get even closer to her. But I've already tried to be friends last time and now I"m back with these feeling and they are even stronger then last time so I don't know if there's really another solution?
I would love to be able to stay best friends and find another love next to our friendship but I don't know if I can. I'd feel like an idiot if I put myself through months of mental torture just to feel heartbroken again in the future but i'll also regret losing this great friendship we have so this is really tearing me up. Has anyone of you been in a similar situation and managed to lose the feelings completely over time? Any tips on how to deal with this in general?
Extra: Even after ending our physical intimacy we still kissed a few times in the club when drunk and slepped in the same bed just cuddling each other but nothing more. This has happened only 4x after ending the physical intimacy so it's been rather rare for a time span of 8 months but I guess my point with this is that we've always been more then just friends but less then a relationship.
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TL;DR: We started of as friends with benefits, became best friends, I got a crush which was rejected, we dialed it back to just friends (no more physical intimicay except for few kisses on rare occasions) and now my feeling for her are back and stronger then last time. I don't know if I should take distance or try to continue as friends again.

Hiya! I'm on the hunt for some long term friends to vibe with. Huge bonus points if you live near Seattle/in the PNW.
About me:

• I’m 6’1, half American and half British
• I like all kinds of music except for country (sorry not sorry if that’s your thing) so rock, rap, jazz (ya like jazz? 🐝) edm, etc. are all good with me.
• I game on PC a decent amount in my free time. Pretty much into almost all games from FPS and RPGs to survivals and simulators. Would love to meet more people to game with!
• I have a degree in mechanical engineering
• Avid coffee, tea, and boba drinker - with pinky out of course cause I'm fancy
• I’ve only ever watched one Anime which is Bleach (thankfully it’s returned!)
• I love me some good banter
• I'm a Leo and Yang Earth Tiger
• I hate cloudy weather on its own, it's just so boring and uninteresting ya know?
• I’ve had the same dentist for 20+ years and counting
• I had perfect attendance in first grade
• I used the same binder pencil pouch from 6th grade all way through my senior year of college and still have it to this day
• Super into astronomy, history (mainly 1900-present, but any history is cool), sports, movies, TV, and more!

That’s a bit about me. If I caught your attention and I seem interesting, shoot me a message. Please include some basic info about you like age and what not, as well as a random question for me :)
Also, Reddit messaging is trash, so I'd like to move the conversation off of Reddit sooner rather than later.

Hiya! I'm on the hunt for some long term friends to vibe with. Huge bonus points if you live near Seattle/in the PNW.
About me:

• I’m 6’1, half American and half British
• I like all kinds of music except for country (sorry not sorry if that’s your thing) so rock, rap, jazz (ya like jazz? 🐝) edm, etc. are all good with me.
• I game on PC a decent amount in my free time. Pretty much into almost all games from FPS and RPGs to survivals and simulators. Would love to meet more people to game with!
• I have a degree in mechanical engineering
• Avid coffee, tea, and boba drinker - with pinky out of course cause I'm fancy
• I’ve only ever watched one Anime which is Bleach (thankfully it’s returned!)
• I love me some good banter
• I'm a Leo and Yang Earth Tiger
• I hate cloudy weather on its own, it's just so boring and uninteresting ya know?
• I’ve had the same dentist for 20+ years and counting
• I had perfect attendance in first grade
• I used the same binder pencil pouch from 6th grade all way through my senior year of college and still have it to this day
• Super into astronomy, history (mainly 1900-present, but any history is cool), sports, movies, TV, and more!

That’s a bit about me. If I caught your attention and I seem interesting, shoot me a message. Please include some basic info about you like age and what not, as well as a random question for me :)
Also, Reddit messaging is trash, so I'd like to move the conversation off of Reddit sooner rather than later.

Hiya! I'm on the hunt for some long term friends to vibe with. Huge bonus points if you live near Seattle/in the PNW.
About me:

• I’m 6’1, half American and half British
• I like all kinds of music except for country (sorry not sorry if that’s your thing) so rock, rap, jazz (ya like jazz? 🐝) edm, etc. are all good with me.
• I game on PC a decent amount in my free time. Pretty much into almost all games from FPS and RPGs to survivals and simulators. Would love to get more people to game with!
• I have a degree in mechanical engineering
• Avid coffee, tea, and boba drinker - with pinky out of course cause I'm fancy
• I’ve only ever watched one Anime which is Bleach (thankfully it’s returned!)
• I love me some good banter
• I'm a Leo and Yang Earth Tiger
• I hate cloudy weather on its own, it's just so boring and uninteresting ya know?
• I’ve had the same dentist for 20+ years and counting
• I had perfect attendance in first grade
• I used the same binder pencil pouch from 6th grade all way through my senior year of college and still have it to this day
• Super into astronomy, history (mainly 1900-present, but any history is cool), sports, movies, TV, and more!

That’s a bit about me. If I caught your attention and I seem interesting, shoot me a message. Please include some basic info about you like age and what not, as well as a random question for me :)
Also, Reddit messaging is trash, so I'd like to move the conversation off of Reddit sooner rather than later.

Hiya! I'm on the hunt for some long term friends to vibe with. Huge bonus points if you live near Seattle/in the PNW.
About me:

• I’m 6’1, half American and half British
• I like all kinds of music except for country (sorry not sorry if that’s your thing) so rock, rap, jazz (ya like jazz? 🐝) edm, etc. are all good with me.
• I game on PC a decent amount in my free time. Pretty much into almost games from FPS and RPGs to survivals and simulators. Would love to get more people to game with!
• I have a degree in mechanical engineering
• Avid coffee, tea, and boba drinker - with pinky out of course cause I'm fancy
• I’ve only ever watched one Anime which is Bleach (thankfully it’s returned!)
• I love me some good banter
• I'm a Leo and Yang Earth Tiger
• I hate cloudy weather on its own, it's just so boring and uninteresting ya know?
• I’ve had the same dentist for 20+ years and counting
• I had perfect attendance in first grade
• I used the same binder pencil pouch from 6th grade all way through my senior year of college and still have it to this day
• Super into astronomy, history (mainly 1900-present, but any history is cool), sports, movies, TV, and more!

That’s a bit about me. If I caught your attention and I seem interesting, shoot me a message. Please include some basic info about you like age and what not, as well as a random question for me :)
Also, Reddit messaging is trash, so I'd like to move the conversation off of Reddit sooner rather than later.

What sphinx of cement and aluminum bashed open their skulls and ate up their brains and imagination?
Moloch! Solitude! Filth! Ugliness! Ashcans and unobtainable dollars! Children screaming under the stairways! Boys sobbing in armies! Old men weeping in the parks!
Moloch! Moloch! Nightmare of Moloch! Moloch the loveless! Mental Moloch! Moloch the heavy judger of men!
Moloch the incomprehensible prison! Moloch the crossbone soulless jailhouse and Congress of sorrows! Moloch whose buildings are judgment! Moloch the vast stone of war!
Moloch the stunned governments!
Moloch whose mind is pure machinery! Moloch whose blood is running money! Moloch whose fingers are ten armies! Moloch whose breast is a cannibal dynamo! Moloch whose ear is a smoking tomb!
Moloch whose eyes are a thousand blind windows! Moloch whose skyscrapers stand in the long streets like endless Jehovahs! Moloch whose factories dream and croak in the fog! Moloch whose smoke-stacks and antennae crown the cities!
Moloch whose love is endless oil and stone!
Moloch whose soul is electricity and banks!
Moloch whose poverty is the specter of genius! Moloch whose fate is a cloud of sexless hydrogen! Moloch whose name is the Mind!
Moloch in whom I sit lonely! Moloch in whom I dream Angels! Crazy in Moloch! Cocksucker in Moloch! Lacklove and manless in Moloch!
Moloch who entered my soul early! Moloch in whom I am a consciousness without a body! Moloch who frightened me out of my natural ecstasy!
Moloch whom I abandon! Wake up in Moloch! Light streaming out of the sky!
Moloch! Moloch! Robot apartments! invisible suburbs! skeleton treasuries! blind capitals! demonic industries! spectral nations! invincible madhouses! granite cocks! monstrous bombs!
They broke their backs lifting Moloch to Heaven! Pavements, trees, radios, tons! lifting the city to Heaven which exists and is everywhere about us!
Visions! omens! hallucinations! miracles! ecstasies! gone down the American river! Dreams! adorations! illuminations! religions! the whole boatload of sensitive bullshit! Breakthroughs! over the river! flips and crucifixions! gone down the flood! Highs! Epiphanies! Despairs! Ten years’ animal screams and suicides! Minds! New loves! Mad generation! down on the rocks of Time! Real holy laughter in the river! They saw it all! the wild eyes! the holy yells! They bade farewell! They jumped off the roof! to solitude! waving! carrying flowers! Down to the river! into the street!

hey! na-isip ko lang ‘yang lyrics out of nowhere lol how r u? hope u’r doing well rn! get some water. masyadong mainit ngayon.
been finding someone ever since. im not sure but i think this is my 3rd time? posting here; hoping to have someone that can be may constant tranquility in the world full of upheaval.
but hey, i just hope everybody’s doing great right now ✊🏽
about me:

• bulacan
• working professionally
• glasses
• curly
• introverted
• 5’5
• loves movies, series, books & music
• loves to go to concert
• loves coffee or tea
• basic feedback is “mahirap ma-approach kasi mukhang ayaw sa lahat ng tao” lmao
• ez to vibe. trust me.
• kanal/aircon humour
• mejo hinog ang skin color
• nonchalant (only works to other ppl but if im with someone that i really value, it disappears)

about u:
dont have much reference but im into woman who has some tattooes and wearing glasses heheh
again, hope everybody’s doing great rn! get some water. thank u, everyone 🙂‍↕️

hey! na-isip ko lang ‘yang lyrics out of nowhere lol how r u? hope u’r doing well rn! get some water. masyadong mainit ngayon.
been finding someone ever since. im not sure but i think this is my 3rd time? posting here; hoping to have someone that can be may constant tranquility in the world full of upheaval.
but hey, i just hope everybody’s doing great right now ✊🏽
about me:

• bulacan
• working professionally
• glasses
• curly
• introverted
• 5’5
• loves movies, series, books & music
• loves to go to concert
• loves coffee or tea
• basic feedback is “mahirap ma-approach kasi mukhang ayaw sa lahat ng tao” lmao
• ez to vibe. trust me.
• kanal/aircon humour
• mejo hinog ang skin color
• nonchalant (only works to other ppl but if im with someone that i really value, it disappears)

about u:
dont have much reference but im into woman who has some tattooes and wearing glasses heheh
again, hope everybody’s doing great rn! get some water. thank u, everyone 🙂‍↕️

Dia Duit! And hello from Ireland! 🤗
Little about me: I'm a 23 year old introvert who loves deep conversations, and love listening to others (I'm an empathetic INFJ). I'm a very kind and gentle person, yet shy and quiet. I also deal with tough anxiety and social anxiety, but by the grace of God I've been able to get through the struggles and draw closer to Him.
I'm Catholic, and would love to find a Catholic/Christian friend of any denomination! I'm open to everyone and love the faith. So don't be a afraid to reach out! And if you want to debate or ask any questions; I'd be happy to do that too :) I have a deep interest in scripture and have a passion for learning about early church history.
*I'm also looking for people close to my age
Other things about me: I LOVE writing! And it's my passion! I recently won 1st place grand prize in a national Irish short story competition! And I'm soon to be published in a short story book collection, and have also been published in magazines. I like reading, video games, pro wrestling, 80s rock and pop music! (I play guitar and bass). And old movies. I'm not one to go with the trends/think what everyone else thinks, and I don't feel at harmony with the modern world 😅. I have a degree in politics. Enjoying helping and listening to others with anxiety and other mental health issues. A hopeless romantic 😅. And it's my dream to visit North America!
If we turn out to be a good match, we can move on to talking by email or other social media if you like ❤️.
Have a beautiful day, thanks for reading ❤️.

My character has been stuck getting +10 rads in power armor, and +4 outside of power armor. This only happens after I enter any power armor but can be resolved by fast traveling, but then starts again when I enter my power armor. This started after I went to the Glowing Sea for Virgil's quest.
Here is my load order:
*Unofficial Fallout 4 Patch.esp
*PPF.esm
*WorkshopFramework.esm
*HUDFramework.esm
*SS2.esm
*SS2_XPAC_Chapter2.esm
*SS2_XPAC_Chapter3.esm
*AmericaRising2.esm
*XDI.esm
*CWPointLookoutFO4.esm
*CWPointLookoutFO4Patch.esl
*PLExpressivePlayer.esl
*ThrowMoneyAtSS2.esl
*DundeeStoryWealthCityPlansPack01.esl
*DundeesStorywealthLeaderPack.esl
*DundeeStoryWealthCityPlansPack02.esl
*DundeeStoryWealthOutpostPack.esl
*DCGuard_Overhaul.esp
*SouthOfTheSea.esm
*DiamondCityAmbience.esl
*BlairResidence.esl
*AshlandStationSettlement.esp
*Natural Landscapes.esl
*Ownership Fixes.esp
*TrueStormsFO4.esm
*Legendary, rearmed.esl
*HoloDisplay.esl
*NukaGirlNoHelmet.esl
*3dscopes-nightvision.esl
*Darlene.esm
*InGameCollectibleMaps.esl
*StoryWealth-AnimTextData.esl
*LIF.esl
*AUR_Rebuild_Shared.esp
*BakaFullscreenPipboy.esm
*CanarySaveFileMonitor.esl
*BakaFramework.esm
*NewPADisplay.esl
*SantasSlayPaint.esl
*vetaUglyChristmasSweaterVests.esl
*HiPolyFacesCompanionPlugin.esl
*UniversalDisassembler.esl
*REFramework.esm
*Eli_Display Shelves.esl
*T65PA.esl
*ClassicSuperSledge.esl
*HellcatPA.esl
*NCRArmourPack.esl
*Reverse Combat Armor.esl
*Skb_MachinegunsRebirth.esl
*Zapgun.esl
*DC Guard Variations.esl
*RemingtonNewArmy.esl
*RemingtonNewArmy-GlowingMidwana.esl
*YouAndWhatArmy2.esm
*KillTips_by_tooun.esl
*KARMA.esm
*ConfigurableHotkeys.esl
*FOVSlider.esl
*GCM_DLC_Automatron.esl
*GCM_DLC_Far_Harbor.esl
*QuestTweaks-DLC04MS01.esl
*ImmersiveDogmeat.esl
*NukaWorldOpenSeasonExtend.esl
*Rusty Face Fix.esl
*Combat AutoSave.esl
*SS2_XDI Patch.esp
*SS2Extended.esp
*the library.esp
*The House.esp
*The House - eXoPatch.esp
*the library - eXoPatch.esp
*MaxwellsWorl.esp
*SS2-Jampads2.esp
*SS2WastelandVenturers.esp
*[SS2 Addon] SimSettlements SuperStructures.esp
*SS2_Addon_NWE.esp
*SS2_ruined_simsettlement_addonpack.esp
*SS2_Addon_R2R.esp
*JunkTownTwo.esp
*SS2WastelandReconstructionKit.esp
*CBBE.esp
*SS2_DLCSettlerPatch.esp
*RED.esp
*SS2_SIMPDDDD.esp
*MaxwellsWorl XDI Patch.esp
*DD_All_the_COncrete.esp
*SS2AOP_VaultTecTools.esp
*SS2_Addon_FHE.esp
*BasementLiving.esp
*StoryWealth-Workshop.esp
*ohSIM_Sim2_Settlements_Scrappers_Addon.esp
*[SS2 Addon] BloodMoonRaiders.esp
*SS2-PraRandomAddon.esp
*SimSettlements2_AddOnPack_ApocalypticAdditions_SirLach.esp
*Phase4DLC.esp
*Hunkered Down - No AtomCatsGarage.esp
*3DNPC_FO4.esp
*3DNPC-eXoPatch.esp
*DCGuard_Overhaul-StoryWealth.esp
*OutcastsAndRemnants.esp
*RaiderOverhaul.esp
*Wasteland Illumination.esp
*ProjectValkyrie.esp
*Depravity.esp
*PLI_Roadside_Pines_Motel.esp
*ImmersiveDrumlinDiner.esp
*StoryWealth-HunkeredDown.esp
*Vault4.esp
*Stm_DiamondCityExpansion.esp
*FarHarborStory.esp
*BetterFarHarbor_Open.esp
*3DNPC_FO4_DLC.esp
*GhoulBlood.esp
*RotPP.esp
*Firelance2.5.esp
*Radical.esp
*PLI_Federal_Ration_Stockpile.esp
*PLIFRS_HD_Patch.esp
*OutcastsAndRemnants-SS2-Patch.esp
*Children of Ug Qualtoth.esp
*KellyManor.esp
*PLI_Dark_Hollow_Pond.esp
*PLI_Unmarked_Raider_Camps_P1.esp
*Flashy_CrimeAndPunishment_GunForHire_Addon.esp
*GunForHire-eXoPatch.esp
*3DNPC_FO4Settler.esp
*CSEPLoadedBases.esp
*IntGrievingRaider.esp
*RansackedRelay.esp
*Rsiyo'sLocationPack.esp
*IntWayneGorski.esp
*PLI_HarbormasterHotel.esp
*PLI_Unmarked_Raider_Camps_P2.esp
*LimaOutpost.esp
*OldTimeReligion.esp
*Science Kit.esp
*Very Zen FGEP Tanks.esp
*ellen.esp
*SelectPack.esp
*llamaCompanionHeatherv2.esp
*Miami Misadventures EP1.esp
*WilkesEstate.esp
*StoryWealth-SRD-PlayerHome.esp
*0_Vault120.esp
*IntWayneGorski-Assistant.esp
*CavesOfTheCommonwealth.esp
*KellyManor-Delayed.esp
*shoddymemone.esp
*In The Flesh.esp
*AtomicRadio.esp
*FatherCompanion.esp
*XG_CabotHouse_Enhanced_Quests.esp
*Artist Raider.esp
*Lima - Storywealth patch.esp
*StoryWealth Undergroundhideout SrD-Patch.esp
*3DNPC_FO4-UFO4P.esp
*GunForHire-eXoPatch-Leader.esp
*LimaOutpost-RealSimulation.esp
*ProjectValkyrie-SS2-Patch.esp
*shoddymemone-eXoPatch.esp
*LiveLove - Heather_Valkyrie.esp
*Vault4-Depravity.esp
*CavesOfTheCommonwealth-StoryWealth.esp
*StoryWealth-SRD-PlayerHome-CityPlan.esp
*CavesOfTheCommonwealth-TheMechSettler.esp
*Tina's Candy Land.esp
*DiamondCityExpansion-RedSeat.esp
*[ARRETH] FGEP-DE.esp
*[ARRETH] FGEP-DE NoKnockDown.esp
*Radical-eXoPatch.esp
*Radical-RaiderMaterial.esp
*Vault4-HuxsLabcoat.esp
*In The Flesh - Feral Embrace.esp
*AshlandStation_ModerateLighting.esp
*SRD-SharedWorkshops-GFHnH.esp
*FGEP - Idle Volume Fix.esp
*WET.esp
*Natural Grasses & Groundcovers.esp
*Fixed Gobo Effects.esp
*Ultimate Window Overhaul.esp
*Ultimate Window Overhaul Cubemaps.esp
*Makeshifttextures.esp
*Minutemen Paint Job.esp
*FOLIP - After Generation.esp
*DiamondCityExpansion-eXoPatch.esp
*StoryWealthLocation-DiamondCity.esp
*eXofied Depravity - Fallons.esp
*RecruitableSettlers.esp
*CheatTerminal.esp
*InstituteSettlements2.esp
*RecruitableSettlers-Unbroken.esp
*SS2_FDK_TinyLiving.esp
*RecruitableSettlersFH.esp
*GoodneighborView.esp
*Eli_Armour_Compendium.esp
*FastTravelFromQuestHubs.esp
*OutcastsAndRemnants-StoryWealth.esp
*Children of Ug Qualtoth-SrD-Patch.esp
*FO4 NPCs Travel.esp
*OldTimeReligion-Legendary.esp
*AmericaRising2-FatherCompanion.esp
*PD_LowerWeapon.esp
*Configurable Artillery.esp
*GatlingLaserAmmoFix.esp
*LooksMirror.esp
*PhotoMode.esp
*SettlementMenuManager.esp
*Mors Shortcut to Curie.esp
*BetterSettlers.esp
*TheEyesOfBeauty.esp
*MoreVariedBodyShapesAndSkins.esp
*ss2c23dnpcpatch.esp
*eXofied Depravity - Barter.esp
*No_BloodWorm_MoleRats_Scorpion_Teleport-BugFix.esp
*SkipDiMAMemories.esp
*StoryWealth-MinorTweaks.esp
*DLC Timing.esp
*Dank_ArmorOverrides.esp
*eXofied Depravity - Fallons Refitted.esp
*DCGuard_Overhaul-3DNPC-FO4Settler.esp
*SS2_MagnussonTerminalFix.esp
*RecruitableSettlersLeaders2.esp
*DCGuard_Overhaul-Depravity.esp
*RaiderOverhaul - A StoryWealth Patch.esp
*Better Vertibird LiTE.esp
*BoS_HagenFix.esp
*AmericaRising2-Depravity.esp
*AmericaRising2-ProjectValkyrie.esp
*GunForHire-AmericaRising2.esp
*AmericaRising2-StoryWealth-Lighting.esp
*FusionCoreCapacity.esp
*ProjectValkyrie-SRD-Patch.esp
*LooksMenu.esp
*SkipHSH1_6.esp
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Does anyone know any tattoo artists in the area that would be willing to trace another artists work. I have a good friend of mine who’s an artist and I would love to get her art tattooed.

Throwaway account. I (18F) have been thinking about cutting my father (47M) out of my life. Not completely since I don’t find it feasible but as much as possible would be awesome. Looking for advice for the best way to go about it.
I do need to preface this with the following. My father, who I will be calling Randy (Marsh), has never physically hurt or assaulted me and seldom says anything negative to me. This is more of a collection of smaller things forming a bigger pile. I’m aware of how lucky I am to even have a father. Too many have been deprived of that and my heart goes out to them. I’m fortunate enough that I get to even consider this option. On the scale of bad fathers mine isn’t even competing with the horror stories I’ve heard online. Billions of people have it worse than me.
I’m casting that aside for now. Strap in as I share years of experiences and personal details to anonymous people online for validation. Here goes.
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Randy and my mother divorced when I was six years old due to his drinking habits. Full custody went to my mom (there was no question) and every weekend I would stay one night at my dad’s.
At first everything was okay, I would have a blast watching all kinds of movies with him. Some of them certainly weren’t age appropriate (such as horror films or movies featuring sexual acts) but that is one of the few things I’ve never taken issue with. However his alcohol addiction kept growing in severity. He got fired, found a job, got fired again and so on. Eventually he just stopped. Stayed inside all day long. Randy was a certified alcoholic.
This did not help in the slightest when combined with his epilepsy (binge-drinking is a known cause for seizures depending on the type of epilepsy). I’ve seen many instances of him foaming from the mouth from a very young age. For example when I was 6 Randy had a seizure while standing, causing him to fall into a window which split his head open. I called my grandma, who called the hospital. That’s an extreme case, usually we would just be watching a movie until I start hearing gurgling noises from beside me.
I was around 9 years old when the situation became even worse. First came the mess. Bottles of vodka strewn about, no longer hidden. Trash absolutely everywhere. But the worst must have been the rotting food. Everything ranging from leftover pasta to cucumbers, just name it and you could find it. Not just here and there but the entire dining table was filled with decomposing biological waste for weeks on end. As most of us know, this is a spot on recipe for getting fruit flies. I swear, there were whole colonies flying about. Dictators fell, and democracies rose. Eons of history must have gone by during their stay. The living room and kitchen were their absolute favourites but more than a few stragglers would explore the bedrooms often. My “swallowed a bug while sleeping” quota must have been through the roof. I would describe the smell, but frankly I don’t have a clue. When you continuously exist inside that kind of environment at one point you just can’t smell it anymore. It becomes the norm.
Second thing was obviously coherency, which had been gone for a long time but somehow it managed to out-do itself. When Randy spoke I was unable to distinguish one word from another and he seemed to not understand what was happening at all times. He was unable to focus on anything. Holding up a conversation was an impossible task.
The third thing was control over his limbs. The last time we ever went out together was when I was 10. He took me to the cinema to watch Deadpool. On the way there he seemed to be okay but as soon as we exited the movie theatre he seemed to have lost his mobility (I wonder why /s). I ended up having to support him on our way to the bus stop. After getting off at our stop he ended up calling a cab to take us the rest of the way home.
This trend continued until he was unable to walk and do basic tasks. No, you didn’t read that wrong. He cannot walk. Not only does he not have enough strength in his legs Randy also lacks any kind of balance. To get around the apartment he uses an old office chair. Each time it’s a struggle for him to get from one chair to the other, or from the bed to the chair. On top of that almost all other negative effects of long term alcohol abuse apply.
It’s a worthy mention that around this time he never went out of his way to feed me. Just kept the snack cabinets full. I can only recount one instance of going hungry. But it is also important to consider that two bags of chips and a pack of gummy worms don’t make the healthiest meal.
For those wondering how he can still live this kind of lifestyle without being in crippling debt the answer is he filed for invalid support and got approved. It is also incredibly important to note that he hasn’t been paying child support for YEARS. At least 2016 onwards.
Frequent injuries also became the norm. I would rarely be present in these moments, only see the aftermath. Broken legs, arms, hips, all kinds of stuff. I have a lot of fun memories with this. I’ll bring up one from when I was 12. The second I stepped in through the front door Randy tells me to come inspect his wound. He was bleeding profusely from a deep cut in his head. I told him it was too deep to close by itself and he needed stitches to which he reluctantly called the hospital.
If I’m already putting him on blast let me shame him while I’m at it. Post anonymously yourself and you’d be surprised by what details you’ll reveal. Randy no longer goes to the bathroom to piss. Turns out piss bottles aren’t just for insane gamers. I’ve had the pleasure of emptying them in the toilet a couple of times along with the spit jars. No poop socks yet but the future is bleak. Most alarming is that when he is extremely drunk (not a rare occurrence) he would pull his pants down with me in the same room to urinate. Truly redefining the saying: “piss drunk.” Thankfully it’s been too dark for me to really see anything and I make a quick exit when I realise.
At this point you’ve heard more about his condition and health but what about the man himself? Well… it isn’t pretty there either.
He lives in a vacuum of sorts since he doesn’t go outside at all. This means he is completely and utterly self-absorbed. Things have to be his way. When I don’t want to watch the same movie for a fourth time with him he tells me I’m whining. He disregards me saying I’m not hungry. Then gets mad when I don’t eat what he made.
Here’s a story that reflects that. I had fallen asleep at 1AM only to get woken up at 3AM to rock music blasting from the TV speakers. I get up to see what the hell is going on only for him to turn the volume down once I enter. He pulled up a movie on told me to sit down. I chewed him out and went back to my room. In the morning he didn’t seem to think he did anything wrong but hasn’t repeated it. However Randy still does it when I’m not awake by 10AM regardless.
Randy is also racist. There is no getting around it. Sometimes when he orders food or groceries he says: “I hope they don’t send a N##### again.” Every single time a delivery man is of a darker skin tone he acts polite, then when the door is closed proceeds to tell me of hypothetical situations where he tells them to go back to Africa. One evening when we had just watched Tenet (great movie) and when I picked out a Will Smith movie as the next one he said: “We can’t watch two N###### in a row. One is enough.”
My dear old dad is homophobic which is very ironic. He toned down those types of comments once I notified him that his sole child is of the rainbow kind. It didn’t come up often since unfortunately there isn’t a lot of gay media on cable networks.
He doesn’t have the best perception of the female population either. Obviously that is also toned down around me but there are worrying comments. Not misogynistic, thankfully, just attributes false stereotypical traits to any woman that breathes. At times belittling achievements or accomplishments. Never to me. “Oh,” he begins, “but not you! You’re not like them!”
Randy gets jealous of any new boyfriend my mother has. Calls them names and demeans them. Also straight up insults my mom at times. We were speaking of vacation photos my mother posted online and he brought up how her skin sags and how she should exercise more. Incredibly hypocritical as you can tell.
However most heartbreaking of all is how he treats his own mother. She is one of the kindest people I know and is the reason why his apartment stopped being a dump full of fruit flies. While living in another town she makes frequent visits to come take care of her son. From cleaning his apartment to visiting him in the hospital. Their conversations are nothing short of horrific any time I’m there to witness. Randy curses her out, calls her stupid, constantly insults her, calls her a fat cow for eating too much (she eats a normal amount not that it matter since you shouldn’t call anyone that regardless), is disrespectful and utterly ungrateful. I stand up for her whenever I can but he likes to chase her out whenever I’m due to visit. One can only imagine how it is like when they’re alone. Randy badmouths her behind her back a lot. Only to me since there is no one else in his life.
It is honestly because of Randy’s mom that this post even exists. If it wasn’t for her I would not have any hang-ups. She is the one fighting for him, telling me I’m the one good thing in his life and he’d fall apart without me. Randy hasn’t been my father for a long time. But for my grandmother Randy will always be her child.
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Now that you know my life story, what is your advice? Obviously I don’t want to stress out my grandmother any more than she already is. I also don’t have the same kind of love and care for Randy. Alcoholism is a serious and debilitating addiction but he is also an adult. My sympathy has whittled down into nothing over time. I don’t want to keep having to spend time with such an unsavoury individual. Fine, maybe that’s a little harsh. Of course there are good sides to him, but I’m so tired of digging for it when all he does is bury it further.
If nothing comes out of this that is also fine. Ranting about this has been of help to me already.
TL;DR Father has been an alcoholic for most of my life. He is self-absorbed, racist and homophobic. Worst of all verbally abusive towards his own mother. I already don’t see him as a dad. How do I distance myself?

My husband died 3 1/2 years ago. I always thought we had such a good marriage. We rarely argued, always supported each other, we both worked and raised 4 kids together. In 2012 I started a Master’s Program so was away from home a few evenings a week. Our kids were all grown and moved away from home. My husband was so supportive. When I had tons of homework on the weekends, he would leave the house for the whole day so I could work undisturbed. Now I know why he never resented leaving me to go “visit” friends. He wasn’t visiting friends, he was spending time with his girlfriend.
I never had a clue. This is how I found out. Today I finally cleaned out his nightstand. I have cleaned everything else the last 3 1/2 years, his dresser, closet, tool shed, all his stuff from the garage but today I started emptying his nightstand. I found so much stuff. Cards and notes from her. A very expensive men’s watch and gold chain necklace I didn’t buy him and never saw him wear either. The notes were all signed Fred. With a heart around it.
I pulled out his phone, that I had saved. I charged it and opened it. I searched through all the messages for women’s names. Checked all the messages. All good. Then I noticed a Fred in his contacts. Fred was actually a Freda. About 40. All the pictures and. Yes she sent him showed her as quite fit and pretty. Everything was dated starting in 2012 while I was at school. Some of the pictures were in my home. He had her here while I was at school getting a degree. Many of the pictures were at her home with her kids. Then there was the ultrasound. And her asking him when he was going to tell me? When was he getting divorced.? She wanted this child to have its real father. He kept telling her soon. That he loved her, but didn’t want to hurt me.
I couldn’t stop reading. I felt like my heart was being ripped out of my chest. The last 9 years of my married life was a lie. The last messages (ultrasound/demands?) were late 2018. He told her he couldn’t leave me because I had cancer. He needed to concentrate on me and make what we thought were my last months good. They agreed to go no contact for a while.
He was the best husband during that time. Coming home early to help and cook dinner. Going to every appointment, staying with me in the hospital, supporting me and was my rock. I had a great surgeon and medical team and the cancerous tumors were removed. In April 2019, he got a text from her with a baby picture. It said “I have a son, you have an ugly fat sick wife.” Enjoy your life. I’m back with my ex.” There was no response from him to her, and no other exchanges.
I have been crying off and on all day. My daughter lives with me and keeps asking what is wrong. I told her it was really hard cleaning out her dad’s nightstand. Should I leave it at that, or destroy the image she has of her dad with what I found. My 4 kids have a little brother out there. Should I tell them or leave it be and play ignorant if he ever tries to contact us?
I thought I had moved on. I recently started dating and have felt in a good place but now this. I just don’t know how to handle this devastating situation.

i honestly love any type of music genre but alternative rock brings back memories!! hope you like

first, if u want to be a creep then literally go find a sub for it (I bet there is one) and leave ppl who just wanna be friends here ALONE! I meant it.
anyways if you're normal hiii I'm Romi. I am currently in the process of learning how to draw better faces (I have no idea how to draw proportional bodies yet and I don't even dare to start trying). I am also in the process of choosing my next hair experiment (haircut and color - shade of red). I finished reading Uzumaki by Junji Ito few days ago, it's a lot better than Tomie in my opinion (oop). I am also thinking about getting and reading No longer human by Osamu Dazai.
I usually watch videos of ppl open cute blind boxes, Kubz Scouts or true crime in the background while I draw and paint. I am also trying to understand color theory so it hopefully helps me improve my art. I like to listen to all types of music, mostly rock (I love Cassyette) but I hate ppl who shit on other music genres. the last songs in my Spotify are from eurovision 2024 (someone send me some good songs pls, I'm desperate) and some bbno$ songs. I'm also thinking about learning how to crochet but idk if it won't be too complicated for my goofy lil brain. random things I like are strawberries, mushrooms, ladybugs, snails (even though I'm also kinda scared to touch them lol), monchhichis and just cute things in general. oh and I'm also making pins from soda can tabs, bottle caps, safety pins and hot glue (+ acrylic paint). I've also been experimenting with self hardening clay, shit is harder than it looks like. that's it for nooow

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The smell of burned flesh tickled my nose, but I ignored it as I turned around. It felt like the world was moving slowly as I watched everyone react to the sudden situation. My father was wrapping himself and Dallin in a cloak of shadows. My mother’s lightning-clad hidden blade was through the throat of what seemed to be a regular citizen with a knife.
Sylvia and I were springing forward. I could hear and sense multiple people behind me, but they were of secondary concern. My heart thumped as I watched Cerila protect Padraic from a sword with her ice. Cerila let Hubris fall to the ground and instantly embraced Mila, bringing her close. She tried to defend herself and Mila with a thick layer of ice, but she wasn’t quick enough.
An assailant with a long, thin dagger thrust forward, breaking the blue ice. Cerila twisted her body, and the dagger missed Mila and plunged straight into Cerila’s chest. It was a moment later that my Stone Bullet cracked the dagger-wielding man in the back of the head, dropping him to the ground. I turned to face two people rushing toward me.
Both of them looked like regular everyday citizens, but they had weapons out, and I quickly dispatched them with a torrent of flames. It was pandemonium, and I couldn’t immediately tell who was a regular civilian and who was part of the group of attackers.
Because it wasn’t just us being attacked.
I parried a sword thrust from behind and sent my spear through a man’s chest. I glanced around, and people were attacking others indiscriminately. A mage at a food stand obliterated a group of people with a Fireball.
Thankfully, without a word, my family and I had essentially made a circle around the three non-combatants. Sylvia was already treating Cerila’s wound while protecting us with orbs of blood, shooting out crimson spikes at incoming attackers.
I sliced the head off another attacker and immediately felt a sickening twist in my stomach. Out of instinct and on pure sense alone, I glared out into the panicking crowd and caught a glimpse of someone sprinting toward us. It was a woman, and even though she was covering herself in a cloak, I still managed to see her eyes, the bottom of them a bright red and the rest a dirty blood color. It was a pair of eyes I would never forget.
I moved to send a hellfire of Stone Bullets at her, but the ground began to shake violently. I lost my footing and crumbled down to one leg as the hair on the back of my neck stood up. I could feel the immense amount of mana now that was gathered below us into multiple spell cores. I encased myself in stone, knowing that I could trust my family to protect themselves and others. It was a good decision, as the world around us exploded.
Boom.
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Sylvia Talgan’s POV.
I wasn’t able to feel anything before the ground grumbled with an unknown power. Even so, I saw everyone going on the defensive and instantly moved the blood under my control to protect Mila first. Whatever happened wouldn’t kill me, so her safety was paramount.
A crimson shield was wrapping around me when the explosion went off, followed by something barreling into me. The air got knocked out of my lungs, and my ribs cracked and broke in my chest. I thought a random piece of debris had crushed my chest, but I was wrong. I flipped around, my ears ringing and my body screaming at me in pain. I tumbled head over heels multiple times, impacting falling rocks and stones on my way until I crashed into the ground.
But the ground immediately gave away again, and I started to fall deeper. I was healing my body as fast as I could, fixing broken bones and giant gashes in my arms, chest, and legs. I even took a sizable rock to my head but resisted the urge to blackout and pushed through the pain with gritted teeth.
The stench of a vile sewer assaulted me as I impacted the ground, and just to piss me off, it was almost completely dark besides the light shining in through the hole I crashed in from. I felt my body break in multiple places again, but I instantly began to repair myself because, beyond the stench and the darkness, my senses were overwhelmed with the smell of blood.
It wasn’t my blood, but the blood of my loved ones at a distance, and right in front of me was the scent of someone I had been looking forward to killing for a very long time. I let burning blood course through me, and even though I wasn’t healed yet, I thrust my arm out and caught a sword with my bare hand.
It sliced into me and cut my flesh but stopped in my bone, just like I wanted. The pain was overwhelming; I wanted to cry out, but those feelings were washed away by the pure resentment and loathing I felt. A pair of crimson eyes looked down at me as a female Vampire I had never seen tried to push the sword further into me.
But it never budged. I wouldn’t let it. And even though I had never seen her, I knew exactly who she was.
She was the Vampire that crippled Kaladin and hurt Mila. And she had finally come to die.
With raw strength, I stood up and pushed back against the woman, and the sword embedded into my hand. Her eyes lit up with shock from underneath her hood as I forced her back and summoned my sword from my Spatial Ring and into my free hand.
I thrust forward, and she backed off, ripping the sword out of me with her own strength. She didn’t give me any time to gather myself and immediately launched into another straightforward attack. I knew what she was doing, and I decided to let her do it.
The sword pierced my shoulder, and she immediately opened her mouth wide to sink her fangs into me, but she abruptly stopped. The blood on the ground, by my will, had formed into a spike that impaled her through the leg.
I immediately took control of her body and backed away from her, letting my wounds heal completely. My hearing came back to me, and I could hear fierce fighting from above; spells and blades clashed over and over again, and I could smell the fresh blood being spilled.
“Wha—what did you do to me?” the Vampire said with a pained gasp.
She was trying to fight back and regain control of herself, but she was too weak and couldn’t stop me. I glared down at her, reached into her body, and controlled her. She reared up from her knees with her sword in hand, twisted it around, and sent her own blade through her stomach.
I went face to face with her as I gazed straight into her fearful eyes. “You are lucky I don’t have time to make you suffer the same way you made them. So kill yourself slowly and watch all the blood drain from your body, wench,” I spat.
“No! Wait—gah, I—!” she tried to resist, but she continued to take her sword out from herself and stab herself in the stomach again and again.
She would slowly drain herself of blood and die a pitiful and agonizing death as her body healed itself. It was the most fitting end I could give her.
I felt the muscles in my legs expand, and I kicked off the ground, jumping straight up and out of the hole I had come in from. I had a fight to join and a family to protect.
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Kaladin Shadowheart’s POV.
I was fighting, completely deafened and battered. After the explosion, a giant sinkhole had formed, and we fell into the center of what looked to be the city’s sewer system. The people were pouring out of the tunnels and ruble like ants. The White-robed assailants were supported by groups of what looked to be Amon-Ra paladins and priests. The white-robed people weren’t an issue.
They just rushed to their deaths with a zealous fervor, and judging by their open mouths and reddened faces, they were coming at us on suicide missions. I had killed dozens at this point, probably at least fifty people with magic and my spear. The real problem was the paladins.
They were highly skilled and most, if not all of them, wielded some type of magic. All of them were also properly geared, wearing full armor and using high-quality Cobalt or Dwarven steel weapons. They came at us with calculated strikes and often in groups of two or three. So far, I had only managed to kill four of them entirely.
I forced many of them back, even impaling one through the chest with my spear, causing a grievous wound. But they would retreat to the support of a priest who healed them while a group of the white robes would swarm in to protect them, forcing me to fight them instead—the priests, when not healing, sent light magic spells at us.
I dodged or cut them down in the middle of the frenzy. My father and Cerila focused on protecting Mila, Dallin, and Padaric, while my mother and I went on the offensive. Sylvia was nowhere to be found at the moment, and I didn’t have the luxury of looking for her, lest I be overwhelmed by the tide of paladins and white-robed assailants.
Another two-man group of Paladins pushed me as I cut down a white robe with my spear. The first one swung his warhammer wide, and I dodged just out of its range. The second one, in coordination with the first, swung his great sword down at me, and I deflected it with my spear.
The bones in my arm vibrated painfully from the powerful strike, but I forced his sword up and thrust my spear into his knee so he couldn’t escape me. The first one stepped forward and blasted me with a gust of wind magic, but I countered it with a wall of earth magic.
I pushed through the earth wall, while the first one tried to drag the second one away, but we needed to start to kill the paladins if we were to have any chance of making it out of here alive. A hammer of light flew at me from across the hole, ripping the arm off of an unlucky white robe that was rushing me. I cut it at the spell core and followed through, hitting the surprised greatsword user in the chest. He let out a yelp of pain and, with a foot encased in stone, I crushed the warhammer user’s head. A Stone Bullet ended the other in a flash.
Why didn’t they just attack us in an orderly fashion? Why send randomly armed civilians at us?
I sensed someone running up behind me and was relieved to see a familiar face. Sylvia thrust her estoc into the back of a paladin which exploded into a ball of crimson. I cut down a few white robes that were between us, and without a word, she sank her fangs into my arm. I felt my broken ribs knit back together, along with all the smaller gashes and cuts on my body. My hearing returned shortly after.
I wanted to ask her what had happened and where she had been to have such a dark look in her eyes, but this wasn’t the time or place. We needed to make some headway.
“Take over defending the others so we can push the enemy back,” I requested.
Sylvia nodded, and both of us pushed back to the center where my father was. My mother, upon seeing us, decided to regroup as well, and we quickly and efficiently changed guards. I saw Mila and Dallin, both of them completely mortified, but that could be remedied later as well.
Before we launched our counter-attack, I summoned multiple orbs of white fire that sailed into the air. They broke off into thin streaks and crashed into the ground in fiery explosions. I aimed for the mages and priests in the back in hopes of knocking as many of them out as possible.
The four of us rushed into the dazed groups and began slaughtering everyone. Now that my mother and I were no longer alone and overwhelmed, we could efficiently kill even the paladins as they could no longer retreat to safety with ease. The white robbed assailants were no longer as zealous and eager to rush to their deaths. As my father, mother, and Cerila cut down people left and right with blades and magic, even the paladins began to hesitate.
As we pushed through, it seemed I had killed or displaced a large chunk of the mages and priests as the paladins, still putting up a fight, were collecting more wounds. With white fire wrapped around my spearhead, I sliced and thrusted my way forward. It felt as if we were finally making headway when a bolt of light whizzed past my head.
I used my Soulsight and saw two enormous blobs of light moving through the crowd at a rapid pace. Two large men in golden and Cobalt armor broke through the ranks, each wielding massive hammers. They were the pontifex’s personal guards.
They aren’t even pretending anymore. This is basically a declaration of war.
We launched spells at them, but they shrugged off the weaker of the spells, and my Stone Bullets had no effect on them. Cerila’s ice lance was crushed with their hammers, and despite being so big, they even dodged my follow-up Lightning Bolt.
The first of the two launched himself at Cerila, while the other came for my father. I was about to send a plasma-based spell at them, but I couldn’t risk hitting my family in the process, so instead, we split off; I went to help Cerila while my mother helped my father.
I formed a combination spell core and released it. The white flames on the tip of my spear condensed and warped into a blazing blue, only to be still like glass after a moment. I thrust at the paladin, and he deflected my strike with the shaft of his warhammer. He sent a golden spear of light magic at me, which I dodged, and Cerila followed up with a blast of ice magic directed straight at his head.
The paladin dodged her attack and swung his massive hammer at me. I decided to block it with my spear but instantly regretted it as my hands went numb momentarily from the concussive force that vibrated my bones. It felt as if I had hit a brick wall.
Cerila and I swung and thrust our weapons, each changing our tactics and trying to out-maneuver the paladin, but he was fighting against the both of us with ease. He was clearly a veteran, and his skills showed. He never let my plasma-clad spear get close to him, and he always opted to keep Cerila’s Hubris away from him with a swing.
The man was in full plate armor, but he moved with a deftness that was beyond that. He was at the level of a War God, maybe not as powerful or devastating as King Maxwell, but these two were a cut above the previous paladins. So, it was time to switch things up.
Cerila and I pushed him at the same time, and he blocked both of our strikes with his giant hammer and the gauntlet on his armor. Cerila’s sword dug into his armor, and he used the head of the hammer to knock her away. I destabilized the ground underneath him with earth magic, and Cerila tried to freeze one of his hands, but the paladin simply stomped through the ground, maintaining his posture, and broke free of the ice by crushing it.
Cerila and I both backed off and began launching spells directly at him, trying to overwhelm him with the magic. It was a howling storm of ice alongside the thunderous booms of yellow lightning. Our spells made craters in the ground and kicked up tons of debris. Stray shots that didn’t directly hit the paladin’s location flew off only to hit a random white robe or destroy the walls.
I didn’t need the dust to clear to see that the paladin was unharmed. With my Soul Sight, I could see that he had protected himself with a shield of mana, which must have been light magic, which left me with only one choice.
I wanted to hold onto this, but I can’t afford to ration my mana in this kind of situation. Even eliminating one of the pontifex’s guards would free us up.
I started forming the triple spell core with gravity, fire, and lightning for a railgun shot. I hadn’t used this spell since I killed the Chaos Dragon, as it consumed a large swath of my mana and did almost just as much damage to me. I was nearly finished when I had to abruptly stop and defend myself from a sword aimed at my chest.
I blocked the sword strike, and my eyes met the eyes of a young man I hadn’t seen in years. His brown hair fluttered, and he grinned at me as his second shortsword plunged itself into my side. But it was his first mistake, assuming I was defenseless in close range. I thrust my hip forward and yanked the arm on his first sword.
So I tossed Alnwar over my shoulder and onto the ground.
I thrust my spear down at him to end his life, but I was forced to block a hammer swing that sent me flying back. I used gravity magic to jerk myself to a halt in midair and land safely.
The paladin pushed Cerila back as Alnwar stood up and wiped the sweat from his brow. He threw his arms wide and chuckled.
“Wooow, I didn’t expect that move. Here I was, thinking I’d get a sneak attack in when you were your most vulnerable. But I suppose I shouldn’t expect anything less from my most prized possession.”

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Background: I worked for a large, Midwestern library system (one of the largest in my state) for almost 15 years, mostly as a clerk. When we started our pay was alright. It was the Great Recession and a job that also gave you paid sick time was nice.
Jump ahead 15 years and pay at this system is a joke, and things are getting worse. The system is looking for a full time facilities technician with working knowledge of HVAC, plumbing, electrical, and light motor vehicle repair. Starting wage? $16.24 an hour. In 2024. Ridiculous.
Look I'm not going to dog the good people who work there, long may the system (I hate being coy like this) do great work. There is tremendous talent there, from LoT to outreach to children's librarians, delivery drivers, circulation clerks (the few left, the system is actively pushing all of them out and have been for years), assistants, and many others. But the Board of Trustees and the Admins who make these decisions are delusional. We've bled so much talent in the last few years - I've watched former staff go to neighboring systems and become rock stars that are justly compensated and not given ridiculous, bullshit management.
I moved on as well, but I still live in the area and I love my library. But we are shooting ourselves in the foot and bragging about losing weight from blood loss. It's ludicrous. I saw this ad for the tech position today after meeting with a few former and current staff for a friendly board game afternoon, and we all shared a good hearty laugh and then just sat there stunned. It's all come down to this. Why worry about reactionary bozos shutting down our library when the people at the top are doing a slap-up job alienating staff themselves?

I'm fed up with the absolute state of the black community in America. We're the laughing stock of this country. No one ever respected this country because of black people. MLK is probably sobbing like a child in his grave right now.
And of course white folks are too scared or too woke to admit it.
I'm so tired of seeing black people being at the forefront in terms of crime, violence and stupidity.
Due to looser policies in major liberal cities, crime is at its peak. And who are the ones leading the way?! Black people of course. We're the ones, stealing, breaking things, destroying everything. The meatball incident had me running for the hills covered with shame.
And every fucking Time this happens you're always hearing some stupid white savior or some BLM idiot saying something like " This is because black people are poor because of systemic racism and white folks are racist yadi yada". Fuck that!
First of all fuck BLM! This shit did as much damage to the black community as rap music. Both these shit ruined black culture in America.
Rap music fostered a spirit of violence, greediness, selfishness: "Imma fuck yo girl in the Lambo brah brah. All them n-word can't do shit". It's always about being tough, about being aggressive and dangerous. Come on! I wouldn't have my kids listening to 99 percent of rap music out here. When did this shit became the poster child for black music when we have so much more positive and uplifting music genre in black music. For White folks it isn't hard rock metal, it's pop music.
And BLM! I could make and entire post for this nonsense. This movement is thriving off of black people believing they're oppressed. Their job is irrelevant in 2024. They should go away. But no! They have to embezzle more millions because white people are evil and black people should understand they're oppressed... Until the end of time!
Asian folks have been coming to this country for centuries now. They faced harsh discrimination too and yet they powered though, and they're not whining like little worms about how they've been discriminated against billions of years ago. They're building some of the most innovative companies in the country. Silicon valley is literally Asian at this point. It's very easy to see how great asian immigrantion have been for this country. The same goes for India people, who left the poorest conditions in India and are still killing it here in the US. Why hasn't systemic racism slowed these communities down. Last time I checked, they were not white!
Instead they came learned from white folks who, let's be honest is still the most innovative race in the US, if not the world. Yes, it hurts my pride to say that but it's true. Instead the black community still stays arrogant and resentful, when it's the only black community in the world that has access to such scientific and technological knowledge.
Black people might have gone through slavery and systemic racism and all that. But today we're the most privileged minority in America. Even better, we're the most privileged race in America period. White folks that are "privileged" if we can say that, are trust fund babies from centuries of generational wealth. However between the average white folk today and the average black folk today there's no difference, at least in America. Worse, black people got an edge because of stupid initiatives such as DEI programs and affirmative action (which are amazingly patronizing by the way).
If black people cannot build generational wealth now it's because most of us who made it, blow it off like brainless baboons, on shit we don't need because of "culture". It's the stupid chains, the stupid cars, the baby mamas! They don't even know how to invest in real estate properly. Between rappers, athletes and the IRS, it's literally a love story.
I understood this culture of whining and oppression is so rooted in black american culture when, looking at Black Africans thriving in the US, Black Americans started saying that black Africans do not understand systemic racism because they're seen as "exotic" by white folks, and that they're not real blacks. What the fuck does that even mean!
It's even in the movie we make. White folks make movies to dream, it's about fantasy, it's about exploration. It's Avatar: The way of the water, it's Lord of the rings. It's something lyrical. While black movies are always so down to earth. It's always about struggle, oppression, teaching something to the white man, Drugs, and racism.
And when it's not about that, it's about hijacking major franchise that white folks built by going back to their European roots. As if black people didn't have a culture back in Africa. Stories that need to be told, rich universes that need to be expanded. No we absolutely need a black elf in Nordic snowy VERY WHITE mythology.
We're the only community that find pride in being victims.
Black people are so stuck in the past, while white folks (and quite frankly everybody else) is moving towards the future.
Kanye said It best. Black people have been enslaved for 400 years. Because black people never stopped being slaves. In our minds!
I have so much more to say. How black women are always joining the worst social experiments in this country. How black people with"basic structure" in their lives are called white. How black culture is always about not taking things seriouly and acting edgy and speaking in slang! I have so much rage against what this community has become after MLK. So much rage and so much shame! The black community in America is such a shame! It's a failure. And I'm tired of pretending it's not the case. I really needed to put that out.

I want to reach out and see if this is something that others would be bothered by, before I complain. To start, I really don’t try to rock the boat. I have neighbors with barking dogs, awful smelling cooking, clearly smoking indoors, loud conversations or parties, and noises of all kinds. Hey, that’s apartment life to me. I have been at my current apartment for nearly 1.5 years and I have never said anything to my landlord about others. To me, just not worth the aggravation for anyone if everyone can learn to tolerate certain things (within reason).
Well I have found the intolerable in my eyes. I am on the second floor and the third floor neighbor above me just got a security camera facing our shared parking space. From what I can see, the camera is meant to watch his car, which is clearly one of the nicest cars in the complex. It is not a luxury complex by any means and I am surprised someone with such a nice car lives here. That aside the camera really bothers me as it will capture the comings and goings of everyone in our building, and those in the building which face us across the lot. There are a few kids/families around, women that live alone (me included), and young people going out or taking their dogs out late. Just people I would assume just don’t want to be filmed. Depending on the angle of the camera, it could arguably capture the balconies/windows across the lot (though I am not positive). To make matters worse, my balcony is just below so if the camera has audio all of my conversations out there could be recorded. I love enjoying my baloney as the weather gets nicer and I hate the thought of feeling surveilled and using it less.
So given the circumstances here, would you complain to management? Our lease does allow for ring cameras on our front doors, but to me that’s different because the view is much more limited. Plus I have never even seen another apartment here with a ring camera. For now, I am parking as far away from the cameras view as I can and approaching the building from the opposite side.